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Realization:
I derive a good deal of my self-worth from other peoples appraisal of my skills and performance.
I know that this is not necessarily such a good thing, it allows me to become overly sensitive to what other people think. But one thing I noticed is that I am much more responsive to positive appraisal than negative appraisal. That is - when someone comments positively, I experience a big boost in how I generally feel about my life experience, as it were. When people comment negatively, I don’t really experience a very significant decline.
I do think, however, that my feelings about myself should not be so dependant upon other peoples valuations, which are partial at best. My own comprehension of my value is also incomplete and subject to ego and mood.
Not to wax too poetic, but I’d rather my sails be billowed by the One who knows my seaworthiness.
God that’s a lame, but I think correct, analogy.